Let It Go (Part 2)

Let it go… Seems so simple doesn’t it? I agree and admit that this needs to happen. Forgiveness is something God gives us when we repent and we should forgive others as we have been forgiven. As Matthew West’s song says, when we forgive, ‘the prisoner that it frees is you.’

The problem comes when someone throws this out as the answer but walks away condemning you. It’s similar to the scripture about physical needs. James 2:15-16 Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it?
You can tell someone who is emotionally wounded to ‘let it go’ but if you don’t take time to help mend their wounds, your words are just more judgmental than helpful. These people need encouragement, love, and lots of prayers. Their faith in people needs to be restored and their hurts need acknowledged and even validated. They need time to grieve their pain and anything that has been stolen from them.

Sometimes ‘Let it go’ implies that the person is purposely holding on to the hurt and pain by choice. They were often victimized by people and left to pick up the pieces by themselves. Telling them to ‘let it go’ is often like telling a blind man to see, a deaf man to hear, or a crippled man to walk. Yes, these things are possible, but only by a miracle. This is often how impossible it feels. Thankfully, we serve a God that is not bound by impossibilities. Whether God chooses to heal or miraculously deliver is solely up to God, but giving it to God is the key.

Emotionally wounded people did not choose this path. It’s like the person in the Bible that was traveling and fell among thieves and left in the ditch to die. Dealing with a wounded person requires us to go out of our way and possibly get dirty in the process. Religious people will often just pass by those who are hurting, judging them, blaming them for finding themselves in this position. Thank God for ‘Good Samaritans’ that show compassion, pick them up, take them to get help, and even invest in their healing.

Now at this point I must admit, this might need to be a three part series because I’d love to tell you how to ‘let it go’ but at this point the only answer I have is to choose to forgive as in the Lord’s Prayer. Matthew 6:12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. also the Bible tells us that we must do this. Matthew 6:15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. Matthew 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; This will place the person or people in God’s hands. Our trust is not being placed in people to do the right thing, but for God to do the right thing. He is the only one able to heal our wounds and do what is best for everyone involved in the situation. Pain often makes us self-centered, how could it not? Pain grabs our attention and we must consciously choose to direct our focus on other things.

When the disciples encountered a blind person, they began to question why it had happened. Matthew 9:1-3 And as Jesus passed by, he saw a man which was blind from his birth. And his disciples asked him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind? Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him. Sometimes people would rather question whether a person did something to deserve their circumstances instead of thinking that God allowed it just for the purpose of showing others how He is able to take care of their needs. God knows what He is doing and we don’t need to figure anything out about the person who is in need. All we need to do is bring them to God and allow God to do His thing, He will take care of the rest, completely.

As I stated in the beginning, ‘Let it Go’ is a great key to unlocking someone’s healing, but understanding will go a long way in helping someone find this key. Criticism and misunderstanding will only keep the person’s wounds open and unhealed, allowing bitterness to infect them and infection only leads to death. As hard as it may seem, try putting yourself in the wounded person’s shoes. Are your words what you would want to hear? Would your actions help if you were in their situation? Would like like people to look at you the way you have looked at people who find themselves locked up in depression and anxiety? Luke 6:31 And as ye would that men should do to you, do ye also to them likewise. You might one day find yourself in need of some help. Would the words ‘let it go’ be enough for you?

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Let It Go (part 1)

A popular Disney movie made this phrase very popular with its hit song of the same name. Let it go. I have two thoughts on this subject, the first of which has to do totally with the message portrayed by this movie, at least how I understood it.

When I first heard the song, without seeing the movie, immediately I felt my spirit to be checked. I could hear the tones of rebellion being celebrated and thought this is not a good thing, no matter how much anyone could relate to it. I heard phrases alluding to how being good had been such a struggle and no longer was this going to be a goal. Let me just say, after seeing the movie, I have since had a new perspective, especially when seeing along side my own struggle.

I could seriously relate to this person, Princess Elsa. She had been given a unique ability that could be useful, but instead had become a curse to her when she accidentally hurt someone she loved, her sister. So let’s just say it was her problem. Also, if the subjects of this kingdom found out about it, she would have been shunned or possibly banished. In order to protect the ones she loved, she kept herself in isolation and silent. How so terribly sad. No one to share this burden with; no one to give her support. In addition, the people she loved knew nothing of her sacrifice for them so didn’t feel loved, but instead felt that she was cold. She didn’t want to accidentally freeze them, but in fact that’s exactly what she did, figuratively.

One day, when her presence was required, she was confronted by her sister and her secret was revealed. This caused her to respond naturally by flight, running away. In a sense, she now felt freedom because her secret was out, she no longer had to hide, but could finally ‘let it go!’ The trouble is, she’d been doing this alone for so long that ‘doing the right thing’ had become such a heavy burden so rebellion actually felt good. She was still wrong and still alone. She went from one extreme to another. She need help now more than ever.

Bravely and out of deep love, her sister decided to search after her. When she finally allowed someone to get close, she was able to find the help she needed. So, two things, when you try to hide things in your life, you won’t be successful, you will only make it worse. And the lesson for those outside looking in, if you see someone who is closed off or seemingly difficult, it may be a warning that someone is in need.

This is what is so beautiful about grace. It is undeserved. When you treat people in a manner they deserve, they expect that, but when you give people unconditional love and mercy as Jesus did, you will impact them. Similar is the story of the woman caught in adultery. When drug before the crowd and brought to Jesus’ feet, she expected judgement, but instead was given mercy. This did so much more to encourage her to change than any sentence.

Romans 6:1-4 What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein? Know ye not, that so many of us as were baptized into Jesus Christ were baptized into his death? Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.

Now you ask, why are we talking about sin when this started out as a post about people with ‘problems’? Well, here’s the thing, sometimes our behavior problems will lead us into sin, especially when they aren’t dealt with or when we try to do it of our own accord. This creates a never ending cycle. Behavior problems lead to sin which lead to more behavior problems due to the guilt and shame, but Jesus broke this cycle by offering His life as a sacrifice for our sins.

Isaiah 53:5-6 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.

The Word gives us encouragement when dealing with our weaknesses. Paul was tormented and asked for help and here was God’s response:

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

God is well able to deliver us from our places of torment, but sometimes He chooses to use them to help mold us into real gems and is wanting us to learn to lean on him while we are still in the struggle. The key is to walk with Him daily. I often visualize it as if He is giving me stones, one at a time, to walk across a stream and I won’t see the next one until I use the one He has provided for me today. If you will trust Him, He will not fail you. I have accomplished quite a life for someone dealing with my issues, but the reason has been all glory to God. As the song says, I don’t have to understand, I just need to hold His hand.

No Better Time Than the Present

Many of my previous posts have been more of a production, well thought out with scriptures and complete thoughts, but I’m thinking of changing it up a bit. I feel led to be more transparent in my journey to find healing in an attempt to relate to my target audience, the emotionally wounded.

I must admit, I thought about putting this off, and then I read the headlines: Robin Williams, Dead at 63 from an apparent suicide. How sad! Then my heart was pricked, this just can not wait any longer. In my search for help, I want to help someone else.

It has been very hard for me to talk to anyone about the fact that my heart is so wounded, still after all these years, but some of the wounds are fresh or a combination of old wounds that keep getting reopened and not allowed to heal. I always feel like I have failed God or that I might be a bad witness if I were to reveal my struggles, but the time has come to face the music and see God use my life for his glory. Besides, the thought came to me today; God does not need me to protect His reputation.

Just recently I started seeing a therapist to help me sort through some of these issues. After unloading some of my past, about half, she looked at me and asked, How did you ever survive? Now this was comforting because I felt like, finally, someone was acknowledging that I had faced some very difficult struggles. My answer was, it was God!

At this time, my encouragement is never give up. Keep looking for answers. Keep believing God’s Word. Keep praying and going to church. Personally my hope always was, this world was not the end, I’m going to a better place, Heaven. As I search for and find some answers, I will be sharing them or sometimes share nuggets from my journey that have helped me this far. One thing is for certain, I do not want this battle to be in vain, but all for the glory to God!

Besides the Bible, of course, I am currently reading two books that I have found to be extremely helpful. A Bend in the Road, by Dr. David Jeremiah and It Will Never Happen to Me, by Claudia Black, PhD. I have been posting many of Dr. Jeremiah’s key quotes on Twitter, but I will start trying to share them on here as well. If you know someone struggling, please send them my way, I really care and want to help.

Seventy Times Seven

There have been volumes written on the subject of forgiveness, so one blog post won’t even scratch the surface. As an American, our Christian values are sometimes altered or tend to take on a mutated form of the original core definition. In America we have ‘rights.’ We lay claim to these ‘rights’ as given to us from the Creator, it says so in our Constitution. I’m so thankful for these ‘rights’ but the question we have to ask ourselves is which world are we living for, this present world, or the place our Creator has prepared for us?

We live in a world full of imperfect humans, therefore we will all make mistakes and are all in need of forgiveness at one time or another. These mistakes are generally understood and easily forgiven, but even the smallest of mistakes, repeated too many times becomes almost unforgivable. It is easy to forgive someone the first time, maybe even a second time, but after that is pushing the limits. Someone asked Jesus the question, how many times should I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me, seven times? Jesus answered, not seven, but seventy times seven. I’m pretty sure that Jesus did not expect this person to start keeping track of every wrong and when a person reached 491, put some kind of mark on this person labeling him or her as unforgivable. Jesus was saying that He expects us to forgive every time!

‘See that no one repays anyone evil for evil, but always seek to do good to one another and to everyone.’ 1 Thessalonians 5:15 (ESV) From Leviticus in the Old Testament to Romans in the New Testament, it is declared that, ‘ Vengeance is mine, sayeth The Lord.’ When we refuse to forgive and choose to make people pay for their wrongdoings, we are stepping in the jurisdiction of God’s territory. We are not trusting that God is ultimately keeping track and that everyone will have to answer for every act of sin if not covered by the blood through repentance. We have been empowered by the teachings of the day we live in that we must set boundaries in order to protect ourselves, or that we should rid ourselves of those who do not benefit our lives.

I remember watching Oprah one time interviewing a woman whose daughter had been the victim of a horrific crime. They were also interviewing the person who committed the crime by satellite from his jail cell. This woman was telling Oprah how she had forgiven him. As a Christian, she felt that it was necessary to do this. I have to believe that had to be very difficult, if not close to impossible, but I remember the woman appearing to be at peace. You could tell that she was genuine. Just like the quote says, ‘Forgiveness does not excuse their behavior. Forgiveness prevents their behavior from destroying your heart.’

We have to be careful. It is human nature to rate sin. We have a good idea of which sins we can forgive instantly, which ones will require some penance, and which ones are pretty much never going to be forgiven. Of course this thinking will be the death of us. Again, this is not our job and God does not rate sin. Any sin in our lives not covered by the blood will keep us out of heaven, but God alone is the judge. He does not need, nor does he want our help in the matter.

Ephesians 4:32 ‘And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.’

Matthew 6:14-15 ‘For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.’

This is a hard, but necessary lesson to learn. Jesus taught this by example on the cross. Luke 23:34 ‘Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots.’ Stephen, as a follower of Christ, continued this example while being stoned to death.

Bottom line: forgiveness is the key to eternal life. We must receive it and we must give it, seventy times seven times.

Ever Tried to Hug a Porcupine?

Most of you would never even think of hugging a porcupine. I would go even further to say that most of you never even considered that a porcupine would need a hug. We are all familiar with the natural defenses that God gave a porcupine for protection, but how does it receive love and affection?

I must admit that I don’t know the answer to this question, but the next time the Discovery Channel or Animal Planet does a special on porcupines, I might just have to watch. The truth is, I feel like a porcupine most days. I feel like due to the extreme amount of hurt I have endured in my lifetime has transformed me into a porcupine by necessity. In order to survive, I will not allow anyone to get close enough to hurt me, or else, I will make sure they don’t repeat the process. This is really no way to live.

My earliest memories of meeting Jesus were about age 2 or 3. He is a real person. I can remember crying and praying and feeling him enter my room and comfort me. I can remember being sick and being taught to call on the elders of the church for prayer. I called my pastor when I was about 5 years old and he came by my Grandmother’s house just to pray for me. I can remember changing schools in second grade and not knowing anybody. I would walk the playground at recess, look up at the sky, and talk to God. I never felt alone. I was 7 when I received the Holy Ghost and I remember being so happy that he now lived in my heart.

If you’ve read my earlier blogs, you know I have a heart problem. Call it unforgiveness or mistrust, either way, I had become a porcupine. I think it helps me to stay sensitive to the needs of others when I don’t allow the hurt to overcome me. This weekend, though, I really wanted to become a porcupine permanently.

You know how they talk about the people and events in your lifetime that shape who you are? I had one of those. In the past, this event would had pushed me towards the bitter, sarcastic way of life. Thankfully I was able to attend Ladies Conference this year and the main theme was about trusting God, no matter what happens. Praising Him in good and bad times. Not allowing circumstances to affect our relationship with Him. Today I am clinging to the verse the speaker quoted at conference. ‘And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.’ Romans 8:28.

What I love about God is that He knows that even porcupines need love. He loves us unconditionally. As followers of Christ, this has got to be our mission as well. There are hurting people all around us that put up walls of protection as a defense, but what they really need is the unconditional love of a Savior and from His followers.

My mind immediately went to the song, ‘He Looked Beyond My Faults and Saw My Need’. In my journey in search of healing, I must remind myself of this amazing love and sacrifice of a Savior and how important it is that we share this message with others. I have also found that the more I look outside myself, the less I hurt inside. My prayer is that I will transform from my current porcupine status into a Spiritual ‘Teddy Bear’ passing out hugs and comfort to all who are in need. Most of all, I want to introduce everyone I know to my friend, Jesus, because He has been my source of strength and comfort for as long as I can remember. He wasn’t afraid to hug a porcupine like me!

My Heart Problem

There is a song out right now by Kutless that, although it is very true, I really don’t like.

Even If:
Even if the healing doesn’t come
And life falls apart
And dreams are still undone
You are God You are good
Forever faithful One
Even if the healing
Even if the healing doesn’t come

I don’t like it because the truth is, while we are here, sometimes the healing doesn’t come, and that means I’m still in pain, I still make mistakes, I still have to ask for forgiveness, I’m still imperfect. We aren’t in heaven yet, and until we get there, we still have to deal with the struggles in this life.

Many, many years ago, my heart was bruised. The bruising was not a one time event, it was many events over many years. The trouble with a bruised heart is that it causes you to hurt others if not tended to on a regular basis. This causes a snowball of problems. You hurt, you hurt others, they hurt you. You often do not know where it even began, you just know you hurt.

But a heart problem is really not unlike any other physical disability. If we have a headache, we take a pain reliever. If we are diabetic, we take insulin. If we had arthritis, high blood pressure, a thyroid condition or any other physical ailment we would seek treatment, take the medication and make the necessary adjustments in our lives.

The trouble with a heart(emotional) problem is that it is often misunderstood and highly criticized. Especially as a Christian. We are persecuted and condemned if we still demonstrate issues with our heart. Now I realize, it is more of a head problem, mental illness, chemical imbalance, or nervous system imperfection, but I call it a heart problem because that is where it hurts. I’ve often said that if someone has cancer they get flowers, cards, prayer clothes, and tons of support, but if someone has an emotional/mental illness they get judged, criticized and talked about behind their backs.

Part of my ‘heart’ problem is hereditary. There is a history in my family. Part of my ‘heart’ problem was environmental. Regardless of its origin, it is something I deal with and struggle with and sometimes even fail with. Everyday is filled with obstacles and challenges, but if I am not careful, little things can become magnified. I guess that’s where we get the phrase, making a mountain out of a molehill.

I would love for the Lord to heal me, but still yet today, it’s still here. Some days are better than others. Many factors affect it, stress, nutrition, proper rest, and exercise, both physical and spiritual. For some reason, we don’t get angry or disappointed with God when he doesn’t heal our physical ailments. We don’t even feel as if we’ve done something wrong. It’s just part of life. But when God doesn’t heal our mental and emotional ailments, we feel like failures. We feel like we must be doing something wrong. Perhaps we aren’t where we need to be spiritually or sometimes we doubt if we are truly ‘saved’. Other people in our lives are particularly good at pointing fingers and judging us for still struggling with such issues, especially if they have never experienced such problems.

I think we have to recognize these all as attacks from the enemy in an attempt to discourage us. God is still a healer. God still performs miracles. But when God doesn’t, He is still good. I don’t like dealing with my heart problem, but it is something that I have been given and my only choice is to learn to deal with it.

Please don’t focus on the fact that I haven’t been healed or haven’t overcome this. Instead, I want to encourage you. If you deal with emotional hurts and mental illness, God is still the answer. I do try supplements and have even tried medications, but the real help has come from daily prayer and Bible reading. Support from friends, help from counselors, and Spiritual leadership from Pastors have also been beneficial in my quest for treatment.

People with heart problems such as myself, must pay attention to details. Make conscious choices in the music you listen to, shows you watch, the people you spend time with, the things you read, and the thoughts you allow. Now this is good advice for anyone, because like it or not, we are all vulnerable to heart problems. Proverbs 4:23 says, ‘Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.’ (KJV) ‘Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.’ (NLT) This is good advice for all, but just as people with physical handicaps must take special precautions, a person with a mental/emotional handicap must also be more cautious in these areas.

Just as Saul would have David play songs to drive away the thoughts that would torment him, praise and worship are very effective in keeping our minds in tune with God. Daily Bible reading is the proper nutrition for our spiritual souls. Regular fasting helps us to overcome our flesh. Prayer allows us to unload our every care into God’s waiting hands and gives us direction when we pause long enough to listen to his response.

I do know this, I’m not alone. C.S. Lewis said it best, ‘Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: “What! You too? I thought I was the only one.’ For too long ‘heart’ problems have been swept under the rug, hidden, neglected, and not taken seriously. Even if we weren’t all trying to hide this hideous deformity in our lives, we’d realize that we aren’t the only ones dealing with these issues. There is help. Don’t give up. Everyday, put your heart in the hands of the Creator. He will either give you strength for the day or the miraculous healing of a lifetime. We recently had a visiting minister who made a good point. When the sick people lay at the pool of Bethesda waiting for the Angel to trouble the waters and receive healing, no one pretended to be whole when the Angel appeared. In Matthew 9:12, Mark 2:17, and Luke 5:31, Jesus was recorded as saying, ‘The whole need not a physician, but they that are sick.’ Whatever the issue is, when you are in need, you can not pretend that nothing is wrong, it won’t go away on its own. Just like a small headache. If treated immediately, it can be gotten rid of easily, but often we ignore it, hoping it will go away only for it to escalate into a full-blown migraine, rendering us lifeless and exhausted once it passes.

When there is a healing service at your church, put forth your need. God is going to heal you. It may be in this life or it may be when we reach Heaven, either way, healing is coming. Until then we remain faithful, fighting the good fight of faith, and pressing toward the mark. John 16:33, ‘I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace. You will have suffering in this world. Be courageous! I have conquered the world!’

The children of Israel, wandering in the wilderness, were provided with Manna every morning. They had to collect it new every day. So it is with our Spiritual nutrition. ‘Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,for his compassions never fail.They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.’ Lamentations 3:22-23 God is faithful to us and with determination and perseverance, we will overcome our ‘heart’ problems.

Have You Ever Made Jesus Cry?

Jesus wept. John 11:35. The shortest verse in the Bible, yet has caused many great discussions about what exactly caused Jesus to cry. Lazarus was his friend. This was not a term often used to describe many people in Jesus’ life. It would be a natural reaction in the flesh to express emotion. Some even say that He wept because of the fact that death even existed in the world due to the sin by Adam and Eve’s disobedience. Although these seem like very reasonable explanations, I once heard a preacher that introduced a thought I’d never heard or considered before. Perhaps He wept due to their unbelief.

Mary, the sister of Lazarus, who sat at Jesus’ feet, hanging on every word when He had visited their home, was very vocal in voicing her disappointment in allowing this to happen. She accused him of being too late. He had let her down because this was not what she had expected of Him. Expectations affect our reactions to circumstances in a monumental way.

Several years ago an event happened in my life. Life had always been difficult, but I had come to think that as long as I was doing my part for God that He would take care of me. For the most part, this statement is true. My trouble was, in my mind I expected to have to face things, but the event that happened was something I didn’t think God would ever allow to happen. My whole world was turned upside down. In the beginning I was in shock, and reached out to only a couple of people. These people were kind and promised to help me through this, only to get busy and I got lost in the cracks. I became angry with God. I felt betrayed, let down, disappointed and discouraged. It has to be one of, if not, the darkest places I’ve ever been in my life. I became numb and felt as if I had died.

After all, I had been faithful to God. I not only went to church every time the door was open, but I read my Bible every morning and prayed with purpose. I participated in every event surrounding the church and gave to those in need. I taught Sunday School. I was a praise singer. How could God let me down like this? I didn’t realize it, but I had become self-righteous in the midst of all my service for the Lord. Not so much in a way that I felt as if I were better than others, but in a way that I expected God to answer my prayers. Now some would call this faith, bold faith. That’s what I thought it was, but instead I was shaking my righteousness at God, demanding an explanation. I’m pretty sure this was the day I made Jesus cry.

I continued to go to church, but I was going through the motions. I needed help and God had always been my answer to anything that I had ever faced, but my faith dropped tremendously. This is a dangerous place to be in. Times like this are necessary though, a testing of our faith, but I no longer felt quite as if I owed God all of me. He had failed me, it seemed. I knew this couldn’t be true, but it felt like it. I began to let my guard down and my vigilance against the enemy was no longer in place. I allowed a breach to happen. You better believe, you may not get people’s attention when you need help, but everyone starts to pay attention when you make a mistake. Suddenly there were questions and counseling taking place. All I could think was, ‘Where were you when I needed you? If you’d been there, maybe this would not have happened.’

Unknowingly, this was God’s great mercy and grace ministering to my life. Many needed lessons were being taught. Even though I’d lost faith in Him, He had not forgotten me. He loved me enough to get His hands dirty and pull me up out of the miry clay and was placing me on the strong rock to stay.

I remember being in an online social community during the dark days and reading an article called ‘Waiting For Hope.’ I don’t exactly remember what it said, but I remember feeling like nothing explained how I felt any better than this phrase. Although I still didn’t feel strong or as if I had any faith, it was the beginning of my reconciliation with God. I recognized that He was leading me through this valley. I also remember a sermon at church camp by Bro. Jimmy Toney, ‘Deadly Wounds.’ In this sermon he spoke about how as children of God we will be attacked by the enemy, even causing deadly wounds, but just as Jesus kept His scarred nailprints as a testimony to others, we should not be embarrassed of our scars because they are our testimony of what God has delivered us from.

The lessons learned during this very difficult time are priceless and although it was painful, I am a better person because of it. I have learned that God is faithful, even when we are not. He knows our heart better than anyone else. As Isaiah 64:6 says ‘our righteousnesses are as filthy rags.’ And the most important lesson to me was, there is no hurt that God allows that He cannot heal. Jesus allowed Lazarus to die before he got there because He knew He could raise him from the dead. A speaker at a ladies conference put it this way, ‘Our every tomorrow must pass in front of Him before He allows it to come to us.’

Now, there are some memories etched into our brains and at the time we can’t imagine ever forgetting them. Childbirth is a good example of this. I had two children, naturally, with no drugs. At the time, it was a pain I thought I’d never forget, but seeing the beautiful newborns made it worth it and now 19 and 16 years later, I can honestly say, the memory of pain is very faint. I can also say at this time that I have come a long way in the healing process and the pain that was caused in the event mentioned earlier has faded away and that in itself is a miracle to me. We may not receive complete healing from the things we go through here on this earth, but just as the song says, ‘Just one glimpse of Him in glory, will the toils of life repay’ I’m looking forward to that day.

When we all get to heaven,
what a day of rejoicing that will be!
When we all see Jesus,
we will sing and shout the Victory!